This weekend was a very difficult one for me for several reasons that I am not sure I understand all of. The basic upshot is that it is time for change and to stop holding on to things that maybe once made me happy, but no longer do. I am compiling a list of those things and I am beginning with the ones that cost me the most money. I am looking for a home or homes for my horses. When I got them, they made me very very happy, but I have gotten to ride once in the last year and that was only because I was angry. Keeping something that makes you sad, frustrated and angry is no reason to keep it, especially if those things are living beings. Two of them really have to go together because they have been together most of their lives and it would be very stressful on them to be seperated.
The next part is that I have a whole semi trailer full of belongings that are sitting and rotting. These things also need to stop taking up space in my head. Then after those things go, I have a garage and storage room full of things that I feel obligated to keep and to maybe do something with... I am thinking those things need cleared out of my head as well.
I'm not sure where to go from there, and Im not sure with all the other things that MUST be done, when the time to get these things done will happen or anything. But, if it is supposed to happen, it will. Some times, the hard part is just making the decision.
